Tuesday, July 27, 2010


So Talesin has fallen behind the 10% growth mark where they start to worry more.  Now we get twice weekly moniterings to make sure everything is doing o.k., which so far, everything else is besides him being small.  Guess its time to hold our breath and hope we don't get an induced delivery ordered.

Sunday, July 4, 2010


So we're kidless for the first time in 10 months or so. Feels quiet. I miss my little Uriel, but it will only be so long before Talesin shows up.

In other news, both BJ and I LOVE cheese and spinach curry. I made the cheese myself!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Psalms, and trust

I'm reading in Psalms now.  What is standing out to me the most is the intense sense of trust in the Lord the psalmist constantly shows.  There is an intense trust that the Lord is completely just.  When the Psalmist comments on something they obviously feel is injust, its not in the form of protest but in a prayer.  Its really quite amazing to read.  It reminds me that I need to be more trusting in the Lord.

It gives a slightly different perspective on that when your interacting with a child.  Uriel likes to play a game where he climbs on top of a little end table in his room or on top of the chair (which he isn't supposed to do but happens all the time anyways), turns around, and leaps towards me.  I enjoy catching him and setting him down again, where the process repeats itself.  Recently, he's decided this fall and catch me game could be extended to, shall we say less predictable locations.  He hasn't quite learned that I'm not always ready to catch him.  Say if I'm sitting on a chair and he's on the ground several feet away, if he randomly falls over backwards away from me he's just going to land with a thump and be really unhappy about it.  Doesn't stop him, he trusts me

Its kind of freaky, he doesn't know I'm not all powerful when it comes to catching him.

Makes you think a little differently when you realize God is all powerful and is responsible for deciding who gets to be caught and who gets to land with a thump.  If I'm trying to be like Him, I need to be oh so much more reliable and so much more wise.  I can't catch Uriel because I'm just human and can only reach/lunge so far and so fast when he does something stupid.  God is capable of catching us, but he has a separate agenda from us sometimes.  As a parent I will have a different agenda than my kids sometimes.  I just hope my little baby that is coming will be able to have me catch him when its the right thing to do.  And not have to worry that I won't be able to do so because I'm too preoccupied with my own emotional needs to the exclusion of other factors.

I'll miss Uriel.