Quality of Academics
Homeschooling did help some parts of my academic progress. For instance, grammar was something that always eluded me until I studied it at home. Instead of writing assignments being something that were inflexible and arbitrary, I could adapt writing assignments to my own ideas and style and developed in writing much more than I would have otherwise. I also don't think I would have ever studied poetry if I hadn't been home schooled, and an ability to enjoy poetry has enriched my life even if the poetry I write is only mediocre.
In some ways homeschooling actually hurt my academic progress. During the time that the whole curriculum plan was built for us by Calvert School it went pretty well, but afterwards when we tried to build our own it went downhill. My parents didn't feel up to teaching me chemistry or biology or having me self study. So we signed me up for a BYU independent study biology course. I don't know if they've improved, but the BYU high school independent study course for biology was pretty horrible at the time. And I had no lab experience. Its not that you can't experience biology labs in home school, its just that you have to buy them, and we didn't. In chemistry we signed me up for a chemistry class from the local community college. That by itself was actually a very good move. It got me a little college credit, I learned much better than I would have at home, and it broke down some of the fear of college level courses for me. But, we never thought to sign me up for the lab section of the chemistry class, which for whatever reason was optional at Montgomery College. So I missed the labs again. Yes we could have purchased those too, but my feeling is that unless your parents are already professional chemists, that is probably a bad idea. At school you actually have a full set of safety equipment. The things we used for civics studies didn't allow for any serious alternate world view presentation, and didn't encourage critical thought or introspection. Even though I learned to break past writers block, grammar, and any fear of writing, my parents were unable to provide serious contributions to the maturity of my writing. Most of what I wrote during that time except for humor pieces is so embarrassing to me today that I can hardly read it.
Emotional Well Being
Public school during 5th and 6th grades was living hell for me. One of the things I liked the most about leaving the public school system is that breaking out of the environments where so many bad things happened to me allowed me to let go of a lot of the hatred and anger that had been building up in my personality. Trying to navigate childhood with Asperger Syndrome is hard, and its harder when your undiagnosed and hardly anybody really gets you. Despite not being diagnosed, the school councilors and psychologists could tell there was something wrong and had me spend some time in the special ed program. They knew all about how I had trouble socializing, had problems empathizing, and learned things in an unusual pattern. All the dots were there, but the paradigm to connect them hadn't been accepted in the DSM yet, so I was stuck with vague labels and assignments to write and read things that encouraged looking at stories from more than one perspective. Didn't do me much good, and other than offering to let me spend more time playing with other special ed kids they didn't do anything that I am aware of to try to help me make friends. And who really wants the stigma of spending lots of time with the special ed kids?
So I got to heal from a lot of the pain of public school just by leaving it. But homeschooling does something funny to your emotional well being. Its puts a lot of your eggs into one basket. An overwhelming portion of your time is spent in one social group, and if family relationships go sour then you have very few options to escape it. To imagine how badly that can end, think of how many people like or dislike subjects in school based on whether they liked or disliked the teacher for that class and for no other reason. So say your mom is your teacher in ALL of your subjects and the relationship goes sour. You either have the choice to hate academics, or make the mature decision to base your like or dislike of a subject on something other than who is helping you learn it. Fortunately I didn't like or dislike subjects based on teachers. And, when my mom would start to threaten to withdraw all support from me to force me to obey her idea of perfect study methods or habits, I just call her threat and learn to self study. This was how I lived with my mother in general- find ways to reduce any need for physical, academic, or emotional support from her to as little as possible. It taught me good study habits, even if my life at home was pretty much living hell a lot of the time just like public school had been. It is normal for teenagers to need to learn some independence from their parents and authority figures. Public school decentralizes those authority figures and allows you to take breaks from people you have trouble getting along with. Home schooling centralizes many of your authority figures into one and gives very few opportunities to take breaks from people you don't get along with. The only times I routinely wasn't with my family was during early morning seminary, mutual night at church, and church itself. Other than that I spent almost all of my time with my family.
In the end I'm unsure whether the living hell of public school would have been better to continue if it would have meant not having to deal with living hell at home. Its possible that I would simply have had bad experiences in both places at once if I had stayed in public school.
Social Well Being
Because I didn't have any effective way to deal with the problems inherent in having Asperger Syndrome, my social well being was pretty much broken and would have been broken no matter which path I took in life. Public school wasn't working. Homeschooling only allowed me to socialize at church or church events or with people from church on a regular basis. Luckily, my group of friends at church was really great and our little group did tons of things together.
We did try to break out of not having socializing opportunities in different ways. There was a group of homeschooling families in the neighborhood that gathered at a public park to play together on a regular basis. They were good and intelligent people. Unfortunately the brand of Christianity they belonged to made them somewhat apprehensive of mormons and I think there was almost a standing ban on us playing together in non public settings. It got awkward quickly, which is too bad because I got along with some of them pretty well. Since hanging out with the local Christian homeschooling groups didn't work out so well, we tried forming our own mormon homeschooling groups instead. This had its own problems. Most of the homeschooled kids were pretty young, and when I was a somewhat older teenage boy most of the other kids involved were pre adolescent girls. Not so much my thing. There were occasionally boys my age in these groups, but there was a problem with trying to be friends with them.
The thing is, one of the major reasons teenagers get taken out of public school and home schooled when the parents aren't concerned about the academics of the school district is to rescue them from some kind of bad behavior or a bad situation where the school isn't protecting them. They don't tend to home school for very long, just long enough for their parents to feel like they have gotten past some life crisis of immoral or illegal behavior or simply a dangerous situation. So they don't tend to be part of the homeschooling community for very long and they tend not always to be the kinds of people you want to spend time with when they are. I remember a play event where my mom brought me a boy to play with and pre warned me that this boy was into some bad things and that if he proposed to do anything illegal or immoral that I should feel free to reject his ideas of a fun time. During one of these visits he told me about how he wanted to grow up to be a hacker or a drug dealer because that was how to make a lot of money. Even if the kids were well behaved and not spending their time with you making crude gestures and crude jokes and planning their future criminal life, I'm an Aspie, which means that I won't necessarily be able to become friends easily with anybody just because you throw them at me. I had some play visits where I just sat there and watched the other kids play video games that I had never played before and couldn't easily learn because I had never played anything more complicated than a sega genesis. If I hadn't been so well integrated into the social life at church, homeschooling would have been an utter failure for me at allowing me to have a social life.
So was I glad that I was home schooled? Yes and no. I was traumatized by 5th and 6th grade enough when 6th grade was in the elementary school, that I think I would have been severely damaged by middle school. Maybe by high school that would have all calmed down. Before I left the public school system I would have my mom call people to ask to play based on which kids weren't making fun of me, and then those kids would start making fun of me just to get the message across that my friendship wasn't wanted. So I think socially and emotionally it gave me a valuable break that allowed me to recuperate in preparation for the epic control battles with my mother that ended with me pushing her out of my life in many ways. I managed to do this in a way that left her proud of me and left a path forwards for the relationship to continue to develop in a positive way. But I don't know how I would have managed dealing with middle school and early high school and the battles with my mother at the same time.
If I had to do home school over again and I could change something about what I did academically, it would be that instead of just doing the one class at Montgomery College as a 15 something year old I would have dropped almost all the classes I was self studying and tried to get an associates from Montgomery College before I turned 18. That would have been a much better investment in myself than the self study courses I was doing and would have prepared me for life much better than the distance studies courses I started taking from George Wythe College. For whatever reason having me take more college classes from the community college just never occurred to us. Which is really too bad.